2 months has gone by

Hello world.

I have not written anything in a long long time in this blog.

But tonight. Someone said something that ripped my heart out.

I had to write it. and it maybe the last time that i will mention it. You were all right. I should have listened. but i persisted, i thought he was different than what you all had laid out before me.

i was at his door for for two hours..begging and crying my soul out for him to talk to me. He shut me out for something that i didn't even do on freewill. After all the time that i believed in what he has to say over things that i heard and even see with my own eyes.

He couldn't even do the same for me.

I thought he cared. I believed he did. I guess i was wrong.

I wish you well. I still do. I have made the mistake of thinking that i have fallen for the person that i see and felt that you are. I hope you find someone who will love you as much as i did. Who was willing to stick with what you have to say more than anyone else. Who was mad enough to put you up there thinking that you deserve it. You deserve to be loved. I deserved to be loved.